1/5/25- To: Him

1/5/25

I remember you. I’ve held onto the same place that you’ve held onto. Straight through the veil into the center of our hearts, that place where love hums so loud there is no other tone.

I’ve been alone for a long time. And also through a while, I’ve held you in my heart. Like a song that echoes from long ago, but the rhythm comes in a flash of your arms wrapped around me, your scent like an attractor I can almost place, and your kiss in the middle of the night. I’ve literally walked up and downstairs while crying in the desperate loneliness, hooked to the idea that at least I’ll have the best booty possible when you find me 😛

Some might call it silly, and sometimes even I have. But I know you’re feeling it like I am, and I know you know there’s one way to love, vulnerable, surrender into shared presence. And I also know you know the rarity of the fidelity of that rhythm in this field.

So every night I place new tinder on my Ember. And blow a little smoke up into the sky from this little fire that still keeps me warm. It’s been cold outside the cave at night, but I’ll prepare the warmest snuggles for you when you see my Flame camped out just down the valley. You can’t miss it.